Many people wander this planet entirely wrecked by devastating childhoods or lousy adult decisions. The enemy loves to heap on feelings of abandonment, shame, illegitimacy, rejection, and all forms of oppression.

I sat at my kitchen table eating supper with my children, and I said, “does anyone else sense that?” No. “Okay well, something is coming,” I said, “and it’s not good.”

Atop Mt Beatitudes on a brisk January evening in 2018, I listened intently to my guide Naomi, through our "whispers" as she called them. I wanted to feel something as I searched the waters and looked across the way...I felt nothing. 

Sigh

Even here it follows me…